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Post by Sydney Williams on Sept 27, 2009 4:31:51 GMT 1
Sorry... She said in a soft tone. She knew that Sarah probably didn't want to talk about it but...she just wanted to make her feel better. She was just trying to help out. Shaking the thought from her head, she gave a small smile and just sat there for a while before changing the subject. Ashley still doesn't know that I dropped out of school.. She said in a soft tone. She thinks I'm still going because I have all my books and everything. She said, moving to grab the color Sarah picked and began to paint her toes. |
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Post by Sarah Karter on Sept 27, 2009 4:40:14 GMT 1
Sarah stopped painting her nails, staring up at Sydney a long time. "You dropped out of school? When? Why?" she said quickly, her eyes wide. |
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Post by Sydney Williams on Sept 27, 2009 4:44:02 GMT 1
Sydney's head snapped up when she heard Sarahs reaction and gently bit her lower lip. So...she had forgotten to tell her about it. Taking a deep breath, she looked down at the ground. Because....of everything that happened to us. I just...I never wanted to go in the first place. I went because I knew it made Ashley happy and my parents....I don't even know what I want to do! She said and sighed. I dropped out somewhere between leaving Auburn and coming here.. She said. |
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Post by Sarah Karter on Sept 27, 2009 4:47:43 GMT 1
Sarah continued to stare at her, her eyes getting bigger. She couldn't believe Syd would drop out. She had actually imagined herself doing that before Sydney ever would. Before she'd ever even consider it. She shook her head, "I can't believe you never told me.." she said quietly. She was angry and upset. |
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Post by Sydney Williams on Sept 27, 2009 4:50:32 GMT 1
I swear! I thought I told you. She said as she looked at Sarah. I just...i don't know what to do. I'm not exactly good at anything and I'm tired of just taking regular math and science and english. She said and sighed, just sitting there for a while. There was more to why she had stopped but she would never tell anyone. Letting her chin gently rest on her knee's again, she bit her lower lip. |
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Post by Sarah Karter on Sept 27, 2009 4:57:57 GMT 1
Sarah shook her head, "I haven't even dropped out, Syd! You're the one that's supposed to stick with it..and I'm the one that just gets out," she stated, making a face. She leaned closer to Sydney, frowning at her. "Why'd you do it?" |
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Post by Sydney Williams on Sept 27, 2009 5:02:13 GMT 1
Because I didn't want to do it anymore. I was just going, taking regular classes. I didn't even have a major declared or anything Sarah! She said, looking at her good friend as she leaned closer to her. There isn't exactly anything I'm good at. She said. |
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Post by Sarah Karter on Sept 27, 2009 5:04:34 GMT 1
Sarah shook her head, "What're you going to do with yourself without college, Syd?" she asked her quietly. "We all need jobs to make money. Are you just going to work in service?" |
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Post by Sydney Williams on Sept 27, 2009 5:07:46 GMT 1
I don't know...I haven't exactly thought that far ahead. She said, thinking about it now. She did have to find a job. She couldn't let her sister just work and pay for everything. The service? As in the army!? ARE YOU NUTS! She said and sighed. For now...I'm just looking for a job, and trying to think of a way to tell Ashley that I dropped out without her getting mad and then making enroll again. |
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Post by Sarah Karter on Sept 27, 2009 5:09:40 GMT 1
Sarah glared at Syd, "Are you stupid? Of course I didn't mean the army, dummy. Service as in, waitressing and crappy jobs like that. That's where you're going to be stuck. You're going to serve people the rest of your life. You'll be at the bottom of the totem pull, cleaning dishes," she said with a nod. |
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Post by Sydney Williams on Sept 27, 2009 5:13:58 GMT 1
It's not like I'd be doing anything else once I'm done with College. I'd be cleaning dishes either my entire time in college or once I'm out. She said as she looked at Sarah. She had stopped painting her toe nails and was just sitting there now. She felt bad for dropping out of school now. Everything just used to be so easy. I knew exactly what I wanted and how I was going to get it and now...I don't want any of that anymore. I don't know what to do and...I...I just don't know anymore! She said. |
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Post by Sarah Karter on Sept 27, 2009 5:16:13 GMT 1
Sarah shook her head, "You don't know what you want to do, but I can tell you you don't want to be working some sh!tty job the rest of your life at minimum wage! Even I know all this and that's why I'm still in school!" she snapped, getting angry with her friend. Syd was supposed to be the smart one..the one Sarah went to. The one she went to for brains...but Sarah was thinking maybe she shouldn't do that anymore. |
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Post by Sydney Williams on Sept 27, 2009 5:22:42 GMT 1
Sydney winced a little as Sarah snapped at her. This night hadn't exactly turned out the way she had wanted it to be. It was supposed to be fun. Biting her lower lip, she held back the tears that wanted to fall down her face. I'm sorry. She said, looking down at her feet. I just...feel so lost and I don't know what to do and...I feel like crap. Sarah...I don't know what to do anymore. Everything I do is wrong and I end up being the bad guy. She said. |
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Post by Sarah Karter on Sept 27, 2009 5:25:17 GMT 1
Sarah rolled her eyes, too peeved to be of much comfort to her friend, starting to paint her toes again. She frowned as she worked on this, her attention focusing on this now for a moment. "I don't know what to say to you. You're just being completely stupid right now." |
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Post by Sydney Williams on Sept 27, 2009 5:28:28 GMT 1
What do you want me to do!? Tell you that I'll go back to college and to forget this conversation ever happened. She snapped. Sydney didn't bother with finishing Sarah's nails. She just laid back against the pillows and looked at the ceiling. Knowing now that she should have never said anything. Just kept it to herself until it came up with Ashley. |
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